Sometimes it comes in rushes, this feeling of awakening my long-dormant Jewish soul (what can I say, it feels like it’s always been a part of me), and I wind up in a frenzy of activity. Other times, it’s a more slow and steady process. The bursts of action make me feel like I’m doing something tangible, learning, growing, adding things, but then it feels like too much and I retreat. I haven’t done hamotzi or kiddush in months, but now that I feel like I’m in a comfortable space with making Shabbat a regular part of my life, I want to start again. And then I will reawaken other more dormant parts of my practice – praying more consistently from the texts, as it were, instead of self-directed prayer, learning Hebrew, and then taking everything to the next step. I don’t know what will be awakened when I take these next forward steps instead of renewing things I’ve done previously, but I’m excited to find out.